June 7, 2011

Cancer Sucks!! That's my motto. I'm gonna kick this bitch in the ass. I never figured that at 29 years old I would have to battle for my life but here we are the second time in 2 weeks I have to battle to save my life. Two weeks ago I had blood clots in my lungs and now I am battling cancer. Everyone wants to know what they can do for me and how they can help but I don't know? I've been one to really ask for anything so I'm not 100% sure how to start now. My family has told me to get over that but its easier said than done. I know once the effects of cancer really hit me and I start to get weak and lose my hair it probably won't be as hard to ask for help. 

I have two small kids that I think I most worried about. I worry that little Miss Sensitive Kaitlyn will take this really hard especially after Mommy "looks sick" and starts to lose her hair. I'm not really sure what Landon will think or how he will react since he is so young but these are my concerns and that's most likely my mom instinct kicking in.

I know I have to take one day at a time and that's what I plan on doing. So he's to June 7!