God, can you Hear ME?

I feel as I have been chastised by family for every negative word that has come out of my mouth but hey lets be real here! I have cancer and no matter how much I fight I'm not the one who has control over this. God, can you hear me? I don't want to die and I'm not sure if you are there? I have two small kids who need me to be here for them and I feel like that no matter how hard I fight you'll be the one at the end saying yay or nay. Please here me????

Chemo

Well, the first round of chemotherapy is complete. I guess it's not what I expected but I'm not sure what I excepted. The meds have been playing hell on my body already and sadly...this is just the beginning. I can't wait to loose my hair (enter sarcasm here). I suppose if fighting cancer was easy then way more people would do it? But I did find out that 1 in every 3 woman do get cancer and I can't remember the odds for the men but that is scary when put like that. I have a huge family and I worry about all of them especially with what I have been going through this last week.

Chemo treats that I was on were put in through an IV every 12 hours. I'm not sure if this is how it will remain throughout this process or if eventually I'll have to start taking the "chemo pill". To me it doesn't seem like there will ever be an end. I heard words like 4 months 6 months...seriously??? That is forever especially when I'm on this side fighting. why can't they make a magic pill that will take away the cancer and all of the symptoms to boot?  I'm gonna say it again CANCER SUCKS!! You'll probably read that alot coming from me. ;)

As for the people who are having a hard time posting comments sorry I have no idea how to run this thing either. My cousin Shauna got me set up so maybe one day she can give us all a lesson together.

June 7, 2011

Cancer Sucks!! That's my motto. I'm gonna kick this bitch in the ass. I never figured that at 29 years old I would have to battle for my life but here we are the second time in 2 weeks I have to battle to save my life. Two weeks ago I had blood clots in my lungs and now I am battling cancer. Everyone wants to know what they can do for me and how they can help but I don't know? I've been one to really ask for anything so I'm not 100% sure how to start now. My family has told me to get over that but its easier said than done. I know once the effects of cancer really hit me and I start to get weak and lose my hair it probably won't be as hard to ask for help. 

I have two small kids that I think I most worried about. I worry that little Miss Sensitive Kaitlyn will take this really hard especially after Mommy "looks sick" and starts to lose her hair. I'm not really sure what Landon will think or how he will react since he is so young but these are my concerns and that's most likely my mom instinct kicking in.

I know I have to take one day at a time and that's what I plan on doing. So he's to June 7!  

Angies Battle

Angie was diagnosed with Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia on Saturday June 4th. They are starting the first round of chemotherpy tomorrow at Bryan LGH West in Lincoln. This will be a long road for her and her family! She has decided to keep this blog to keep up her spirits and keep us all "in the know" about what is happening! As we all know Angie, she is Fiesty and has a great sense of humor. I am sure that she will keep us all laughing! There will be plenty of ways that each of us can help her and the family...we will keep you posted and if you want to help out with anything...we will divide and conquer to help them in any way that we can!!!