I discovered something that I wasn't thrilled to learn. First of all, apparently when you are doped up on pain medications you miss a LOT of conversations between family members and medical professionals. So, we went to a Dr. in Grand Island the other day to see about transferring my treatments closer to home so we didn't have to travel as much. This Dr. informed me that my circumstances are very grim. Really? Not something I wanted to hear. Apparently my type of Leukemia (Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia ALL) is incredibly rare in adults. This I knew. What I didn't know was how rare. In a nine year time period one of the big research hospitals in Texas was only able to see 33 adults with my kind of cancer. The study took place in Texas at a rather large hospital that sees people from all other the country and only 33 of these people had ALL. So now I'm a freak! :)
The Dr. in Lincoln has informed me that once I go into remission I will have a 50/50 chance of staying there. Seriously? I feel like throwing in the towel for those odds. I don't want to give up but it doesn't seem like very good odds to me. I spoke to a good friend today and she informed to not look at it negatively. I need to focus on the fact that 50/50 is better than 80/20. I agree with her but it's still hard to do. Thank you Jessi for helping me see that I can still beat this and I have a 50% chance of being healthy for the rest of my life. You are a great friend and sometimes you need someone to show you the positive and today you did that for me. I am truly grateful for you and I will always be indebted to you. Thank you!
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